My blog gets 50-60 visitors daily, and all of a sudden, it hit nearly 300 last week (or around 10 days ago; I forgot). I wasn’t even in Sydney, Australia. Thanks to a guy named Greg and his devoted mention of my blog and appearance as “she’s your Asian girl-next-door, which you might walk by without noticing”! Though I still feel uncomfortable being judged or criticized for me being myself, I have to admit that his review was based on facts. The sex(and Greg) was as boring and mundane as dry white toast. Not gonna lie, I just wanted to finish it asap. I give Greg’s review (on me) a 1 out of 5 only because I don’t like receiving a bad review, but I appreciate his honesty. If I were to write a review of anything, I would be like Greg. Such a great reviewer.
I unknowingly and jokingly mention “broken family” a lot. Whenever someone accuses me of thing, I half-jokingly say, “cos I’m from a broken family uwu” or “my mum cheated on my dad, so I’m a degenerate” or “no father figure for 20 years, so go figure.” During this visit, my mum brought it up that I overuse these and it hurts her. She even compared me to her current partner’s kids, questioning why I’m a failure while they are well-grown, independent, responsible, delightful taxpayers, despite all of us being from broken families. She said she tried her best to raise me alone (with her uncountable ex-boyfriends’ mental support and my dad’s financial support), so it’s not fair for her if I’m being degenerate and blaming my parents for it. I had a lot to say, but I kept quiet and said, “yes, ma’am.”
I think I’m mature now, or maybe I’m just too tired to fight her or partly agree with what she said. Like how I hate Greg’s review, but from Greg’s point of view, it’s all a true story, and you know, I am sowwy! This was the first trip that my mum and I did not argue, and I think we are both trying and improving. She said she’s proud of me for being only this much degenerate despite being born between an autistic dad and a neurotic herself.
